Kenjin's Blog under the sakura tree~~

Life is like a boat

2007-07-19T17:50:00.000+08:00

Life is like a boat - Rie Fu

Nobody knows who I really am
I never felt this empty before
And if I ever need someone to come along,
Who’s gonna comfort me, and keep me strong?

We are all rowing the boat of fate
The waves keep on coming and we can’t escape
But if we ever get lost on our way
The waves would guide you through another day

dooku de iki o shiteru toomei ni natta mitai
kudayami ni omoe dakedo mekaku shisarete tadake

inori o sasagete atarashii hi o matsu
asayaka ni hikaru umi sono hate made

Nobody knows who I really am
Maybe they just don’t give a damn
But if I ever need someone to come along
I know you would follow me, and keep me strong

hito no kokoro wa utsuriyuku mukedashiteku naru
tsuki wa mada atarashii shuuki de mune o tsureteku

And every time I see your face
The ocean heaves up to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars, and soon
I can see the shore

Oh, I can see the shore
When will I see the shore?

I want you to know who I really am
I never thought I’d feel this way towards you
And if you ever need someone to come along,
I will follow you, and keep you strong

tabi wa mada tsuzuiteku odayakana hi mo
tsuki wa mata atarashii shuuki de ume o terashidasu

inori o sasagete atarashii hi o matsu
asayaka ni hikaru umi sono hate made

And every time I see your face
The ocean heaves up to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars, and soon
I can see the shore

Unmei no huneoko gi nami wa tsugi kara tsuki e to watashi-tachi o sou kedo
Sore mo suteki na tabi ne, dore mo suteki na tabi ne

This song expresses how I feel sometimes....

In-Game Drama

2007-06-08T02:04:00.000+08:00

It is fascinating to see gamers who take their real life issues and implant it into a virtual world. It only results in unnecessary drama that will affect the gaming experience of others. Lets give it an example. In World Of Warcraft, a game which I play, in my 3 years of playing that game I have seen countless of events where guilds split, feuds are formed and tons of other sorts of silly things happening all because people take a GAME too seriously.

Kinda silly really. The purpose of a game is for entertainment. To get stressed and affected over a game is really not worth it IMHO. A game's a game as I tell many, have fun lar. You pay money to get angry over a game meh? haha...

Rurouni that I am

2007-05-28T22:56:00.000+08:00

When i started to blog, I came in with an attitude of a rurouni. A wanderer. Lost, distant, melancholic, deep in thought. Perhaps, even to the point of seeming emotionally dead. Trails and tribulations have come, likened to blows, and I have taken it blow by blow. There were times when I got hit so hard, I fell. I would pick myself up, and continue to trudge on. Victory or defeat, the path to the ultimate dream or goal still exists.

The past week has been a blast. Really had fun with the peeps from W363. An energetic lot I would say. hehe. Had a great time fellowshipping with those folks. Its been a long time since I laughed so hard, its just great I tell u. =) The people are just great, filled with joy and life, filled with so much love for God. I'm inspired and touched I tell you. Sometimes our love for God just wanes as we get older. I hope I don't go down that way. I may not be as young as I was 6+ years back, but heck am I gonna act like some old man and be content with whatever mediocre life I have. I'm gonna have an adventure with God, and thats what it will be.

EMERGE is round the corner, so I better be gearing up for it. New clothes, new hair?, RENEWED attitude and expectancy. Its gonna be a mind blowing experience, so I better gear up ^^

Mock Cell Group

2007-05-07T02:37:00.000+08:00

Riverwalk 330PM

Lecture Room 7

Event: Mock Cell Group

Feelings:WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

VERY KANCHIONG AHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!

K. After that. Everything went smoothly and feedback was good. Praise the Lord! I took games la. Initially I was quite nervous la, but after calming myself down, I was able to focus and conduct the games properly. Had fun. Praise and Worship was good. Presence of God was strong! Word was good and offering was good too! It may be a mock cell group, but still most of us walked out of the place having received something. In other words...Poooowwweeerrrrrrr!!!!!

Easter

2007-04-09T01:01:00.000+08:00

Service was great! The drama never fails to touch me, seeing how Jesus died for us so that we can live! How my Lord died because He loved us so much...Thank you Lord =)

F.R.I.E.N.D.S

2007-03-19T01:34:00.000+08:00

Finally watched the last episode of FRIENDS. Wah.... it took me 3 months to complete the whole 10 seasons sia... Loved it! The story of how a group of 6 friends, the times of joy and sadness, the times where they stuck together. And when I watched the final episode, where they left the apartment where they had spent 10 years of their life in, super touching sia.

I'm really blessed to know that I have friends who will stick by with me through thick and thin. Friends that build you up, rebuke you when its time to, encourage you etc. Knowing the fact that I have these people with me makes me smile knowing how blessed I am.

Folks, I know some of us are moving in different directions, different areas of our calling. But know this, friendship transcends countries, time and what not. I am honored to call you friend and it will be so for the rest of my life. Thank you!

Art of Worship Leading and etc.....

2007-03-15T01:21:00.000+08:00

Just had class on Worship Leading today. Really opened my mind today. Learned alot of things from Sis Annabel, and it was fun! Hehe. She makes the lesson so enjoyable, teaching and then singing to demostrate! Wahaha.

When she told us on how they spent days just to prepare for the Praise & Worship for church services, I was shocked I tell u. 4 days of preparation of 30 minutes? Wow. So much effort! Really showed the excellence and the dedication they put in.

Aside from that, I really found out the sheer amount of things you need to note whilst not only preparing, but also during the worship leading itself. Challenging I tell you. Haha.

Anyways this weekend this Youth Edition! Woot! Really excited I tell you. Really wanna see many friends coming and getting touched by the power of God. And of course, their salvations! Time to grow W331!

ArmorBearer

2007-03-07T00:22:00.000+08:00

I just read an article on being God's ArmorBearer, and boy am I blown away. The first thing is that being an ArmorBearer ain't gonna be an easy job. It requires FULL submission to the leader placed above you. Personally it isn't easy for me, being a person used to getting things done my way and being known to be exceptionally blunt and adamant about how certain things are run. But hey, if I cannot even over come this things, humble myself, swallow my pride etc and submit myself to my leader, how can I ever expect myself to be able to rise up to be a leader on my own?

My thing that really impacted me was how an ArmorBearer was to be a source of strength to the leader. Its like in a war ya know. An officer charging into battle would wanna lead a platoon of High Morale troops into battle and it is up to the people under him to rally the troops, boost their morale and present them battle ready. An ArmorBearer shouldn't be another burden to the leader. But rather be a strong individual that can stand his own ground. This is really what I believe that I should strive to achieve. There are many other duties/functions of being an ArmorBearer. But this one stood out the most to me. I cannot say that I have been fulfilling all the required duties but hey, I can say that I am doing my best to be the best there is.

An important thing I noted was how important it is to have good communication between the leader and the armorbearer and also how a strong trust between them must exist. Personally the communication part is tough, since I ain't the very "communicable" type (dependent on situation and opposite party's personality i guess, since I can be very "mad" sometimes), but experiences have taught me how important it is. An event of when I just could not take it and just exploded bluntly (but in a civil and controlled manner) is still etched firmly in my mind and I do not wish of that EVER happening again. That event taught me how important it was to communicate with the leader. I am still trying and God I pray I can really improve on that.

Got much to write but alas time is in lack. Got 2 tests on Thurs and Fri. I think I am gonna go do them by faith liao. haha............Laters. /salute

Testimony

2007-03-01T02:20:00.000+08:00

I just really want to thank God for His protection today, if not, I would have been seriously injured or even 6 feet under ><. Heres what happened....

It was after HCGL class and I was walking back to the MRT station with a friend after a round of dinner. It was drizzling slighty at that point of time. To get to the MRT station, I had to cross 2 roads with their respective traffic lights. As usual, being a proper law abiding citizen I waited for the green man to light up. When it did, my friend and I started to cross the road. As we walked across chatting, suddenly I sensed something bad and I turned my head to the left, just in the nick of time to see a car speeding towards me. In that fleeting moment I quickly jumped a foot ahead and managed to avoid getting hit by the car. According to my friend, a few inches more and I would have been hit. Wow. Thank God! I'm grateful to the Holy Spirit as well for giving me a warning...That was really a narrow escape for me, but through it I have seen God's protection over my life. Praise God!

Well, at least the driver had the good grace to stop and apologize to me. I wasn't tramatized or anything so I just waved it off and continued on. Haha... What an experience it was. ><

meh.

2007-02-26T09:58:00.000+08:00

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k. Much better.

Chinese New Year

2007-02-20T03:51:00.000+08:00

Lets see... CNY this year has been sorta a soso thingy. Lack of the seasonal mood perhaps? Most probably its because of school work that kinda spoiled the mood a little. But all in all, I had fun. Great fellowship with family and friends. And of course, always happy to receive ang pows. =)

Gloria's going off on friday, and boy its gonna be wierd without her around again. Funny thing is that during the period here, we hardly had the time to meet. Pfft. All of us are so busy eh... Anyways, by hook or by crook this wed must have a not so HIGH tea with her. This is my last chance liao. No way I gonna let it slide..

AND oh hey. Heres a glimpse of what I do very often.....Yes. I kill evil creatures and other stuff with my guild of fellow heroes who strive to keep the peace of Azer...........

I better stop. I am starting to sound like a geek. =P

Update! Oh yay!

2007-02-19T00:48:00.000+08:00

I am Wei Lun. I am a Paladin. I heal. I smite. I save people etc etc etc. Nooooo! I cannot fall into geekdom ><> <><.. I must resist. =P

Update... finally eh.

2006-10-18T04:52:00.000+08:00

If i can blog at this hour... that means I am stressed out and super tired... yet cannot sleep. My minds a turmoil and sometimes I feel like stopping everything and giving up. Yet, in reality, that is not possible. Hence, the continual fighting on.....

School work is seriously taking a toll on my mental and physical health. Its already bad enough that the standard that I had expected of NTU is not there... and yet more silly assignments that only serve to confuse me even more is coming in. This is appalling. Sometimes I get so frustrated with the relevant parties that I wanna just vent it on them. However, I know that it is not gonna help and God ain't gonna be very happy. Hence, i am turning to God for peace and wisdom =)

Later I am gonna attend LTC. Quite excited really ^^. Seriously I am gonna just put aside everything and go and enjoy the class. Not gonna let myself be affected by anything. Chill out time!

Uni Life

2006-09-05T22:14:00.000+08:00

Wah. SO long never update liao. To think school has already started for like 4 weeks already. Haha. Life is tough in university, very xiong time tables, heavy workload etc. Time to priortize my time, work is work, play is play.

Emotions have been a turmoil lately. Stress is getting into me, and I know that I will BE grumpy when I am stressed out. I got tendencies to lapse into moods for NO apparent reason too. God help me on this weaknesses. I know they exist, and am trying my best to change! But ultimately, God will do the changing. =) Personally, I don;t like my grumpy/grim/overly serious self. I rather be happy, jovial what have you. Beats carrying a -_- face anyways. heh.

Life's kinda boring now that my dear brethren is overseas, but hey, gotta adapt till she gets back. =) Thank God for my good gaming/childhood buddies. Having animated discussions or crap sessions really makes life more interesting. Hee. Anyways, GLORIA, hurry up and come back so that we can TGOTB! T-T

Which reminds me, I better send the parcel over to her. Haha. Hope u will be blessed by the book brethren =)

2 more weeks to term break. SO fast. In a sense, a rest is good. However, I know I am gonna chong my butt off once school restarts. I must do well. No matter what.

I am really glad I have friends around me that really encourage me when I am down. Yes, there are some who don't bother at all, but it ain't my business. I rather stick close to those who truly care. A true friend is one that truly cares. Not interested in people who put face acts. I try to be a good friend myself, but sometimes, people don't wanna accept my care and concern. Ah well, nothing much I can do beyond that huh? I shall continue to do so, even if no one bothers =)

What a collection of jumbled up thoughts I have typed! LOL. Must be quite sian. Cannot blame, since I am doing java now. Sheesh! God grant me wisdom.

Update

2006-06-25T01:23:00.000+08:00

June is coming to an end. A new chapter in my life is beginning soon, not that everyone will know I guess. Many things gonna happen soon, better be prepared for it. First to clear some issues that I;ve been thinking about which might bother be in the future.

In My Lord's service

2006-05-16T08:20:00.001+08:00

Come to think about it, I seem to be spending lesser and lesser time with my cell group... Gone are the days where I can have a fruitful fellowship with them anymore, given my responsibilities in ministry. I love my cell; leader and my fellow members, but seriously la, I am more closer to people outside of my cell, namely my brethrens and some other closer friends, churched and unchurched.

Serving in ministry with my current roles has indeed been a great sacrifice. My fellowship has probably been cut into half, since I most likely don't get to see them on Sundays, with the addition that by the time I finish, they already went home. I feel like a stranger sometimes.. haha... But hey, I have no regrets. I chose to serve, I shall serve to my fullest. I was already told earlier that being one of the leaders and taking up my current role will affect my time with the cell. I knew the result, and I chose to go ahead. No turning back.

I sincerely hope that I can have better fellowship and time with my cell group. I do wanna get to know everyone in the cell more, and also contribute more in the cell. The most ironic thing I actually thought was coming to the cell and being mistaken for a new friend. Heh. Well, things will get better as time goes...

2 face

2006-05-08T15:35:00.000+08:00

As I observe around me, I feel saddened that there are people who carry 2 faces. In front of one person, all cheery and laughing all. In front of another, act DAO and give half-baked answers like "ok", "i see". My take, please be yourself and stop hiding under a mask. IMHO, if u seriously don't feel comfortable hanging out/ talking to certain someone, it would be better to stay away and hope you never meet again. Better that than being rude.

Health

2006-05-02T08:15:00.000+08:00

I have been getting sick alot recently. Perhaps my immune system is not up to task at the moment. Heck, I better take care of myself more... Still I can always claim upon God's promise of healing. =)

Friends

2006-04-21T08:05:00.000+08:00

I just read brethren's post... and got really impacted by what she wrote. Ya know, friendship is something that is really good to have. Friends taht stand by you in your time of need. Friends that are willing to sacrifice to aid you etc. But friendship comes at a cost. It is your TIME. A friendship or relationship in general requires the 2 individuals to spend time to maintain it. A relationship can just die out if the 2 parties involved just busy themselves with their own individual lives.

There is no excuse for claiming that you are too busy etc. Time is yours to manage, and with proper time management, you can do anything you wish to. I do not accept reasons like "I am busy with studies" or "tied down by this and that". It makes me wonder how you arrange your time. If you are busy with this or that, do take note to check whether are you TOO BUSY for God too! What is BUSY? I heard this from someone: BUSY = Being Under Satan's Yoke... The devil is clogging up your life with so many stuff that you are neglecting your relationship with God! Are you too tired everyday to do your QT? QT is a time spent talking to God. In every relationship, communication is very important. The more you comminicate, the closer you will get with the other person. This applies to your relationship with God too! The more you communicate with God, the better you get to know Him and the closer you will be to Him! Its a fact la! I notice myself, the people I hardly talk to my relationship with them is like an acquaintance type. I know the person, but I dunno who he/she really is and frankly, I wouldn't want to hang out with the person. And please, don't ring me up/MSN/talk and attempt to "chat" for a mere 5 minutes or so. It lacks sincerity and I will feel it is not a fruitful conversation and hence, a total WASTE of my time. Sadly, I see this happening to me many times.

Another thing is.. don't wait for people to come to you! HELLO! You got a mouth and a brain, so go take the initiative and start talking to other people. Its awkward at first, but if you are sincere, the person will be willing to open up! Go spend some time hanging out with the person la!

Long post. Did't know I had so much to type early in the morning. LOL.

PS: BRETHREN! Thou shall not worry! Even if you are in Mel, there is always MSN/Internet phones etc. And... you have my Word that I will come down personally to visit you (During my holidays la!) Distance is no issue! Time is not an issue to me either!

More Reflections

2006-04-17T00:01:00.000+08:00

As I think about it, I've seen myself change for the past year in the cell group, but I'm talking about my view and my feelings for my cell group.

When the cell multiplied... I dunno.. I felt.. OLD. Yes. OLD. My good group of buddies was torn away from me in an instant. I had no one to relate to? Seriously who? Everyone was way younger than me. Similar interests? Difficult. I guess I was at a total loss.

I had difficulty fitting in. Many a time I found myself alone... It seemed alright to me.. since I was pretty much a loner before and I thought I was used to it. I guess I was wrong. I did try to put in effort to go talk around... but I guess I got tired. Naturally.. things started getting dry after that.

Alot of things went by... I fail to remember. My memory seems to fail me alot nowadays. But now I am more or less settled onto my dear cell. I've opened up quite abit. This time I didn't have anyone to probe me or push me to do it. Its probably the enviroment that I was placed in that REQUIRED me to do so. Its good la. Make we take initiative for once. I'm still learning though. To many I still ain't the number one person they would really like to share and talk. But hey! I didn;t say this journey was a short stroll in the park. With God's help, it is gonna be good and interesting. =)

So near yet so far.

2006-04-11T14:26:00.000+08:00

=\.. Gabriel just called me to tell me that he found his IC.. after 2 1/2 years... @$%#%^$%^$!.. ORD LA! Good for him... now 4 more months for me...

>< >< >< ugh!

2006-04-05T08:17:00.000+08:00

That time of my life has come... I am very lost now.. I dunno what to do..GAH! In case you dunno what I am talking about, it is "The person that will sit next to me in TGOTB" as referred to by my dear brethrens. I dunno.. I hadn't bothered about that till now.. And now its stuck in my mind like glue and I do not know what to do with it.. God help me!

A tribute to a group close to my heart

2006-03-27T08:24:00.000+08:00

On a faithful afternoon on a normal day in May, four individuals stepped into Changi Airport withe excitement in their hearts. These 4 where going to a mission trip in Perth, but they did not know each other with the exception of 2. 2 were cell group members, and the other 2 from other cell groups.

Off to Perth they went, and somehow, the 4 of them became a group of friends through some mysterious work of God. From that day onward, the Brethrens was born...

These four individuals, Gloria, Wei Lun, Alex and Jeremy, formed the core of this fellowship. Late night chats over MSN ensued, with frequent "table-banging" by Gloria, sitting under a sakura tree and sipping sake by Wei Lun, whining and dunno what by Alex, and the constant AFK(Away from Keyboard) by Jeremy. This progressed on to frequent eat-outs with one and other, and soon it became to what it is known today as "The Gathering of the Brethrens (TGotB) (TM)"...

This continued for a few months before 2 of the Brethrens were enlisted in the army. Efforts were made to meet up, but due to commitments, Jeremy could not join as often and decided to become an Honorary Member of the Brethens. At that point of time, a fresh new face appeared in the Brethenhood fellowship. His name is Wei Jin, and after a series of interviews and TGotBs, he was inducted into the fellowship.

Close to 2 years have passed since the fateful day the Brethrens were formed. I as one of the Brethrens, can say that I am honored to have such wonderful people in my life. Many things have come and go, and I can say this fellowship was not formed not from mere coincidence, but rather from a divine appointment from God Himself. This fellowship does not exist just to hang out and wat, but rather it is a gathering where each member is able to build each other's spiritual life up. This is a place where we are accountable to one another, a place to share our problems. In fact, I can say that we are so close, we are a..."Family that loves loves loves.. loves one another~~~". Here is my tribute to each of the following memebers of the BrethrenHood.

Gloria aka Tai Tai/Events Manager & Lady Boss of the Brethens \(^^)/ = Thank you for being the core of this fellowship, always the one organising TGotBs. You are one of the reasons I am not the TRUE Tall and Intimidating person anymore. It is a joy to know you, and even though you are going overseas soon, we know that you will flourish and live over there. Bless you sister brethren, may God pour his wisdom upon you when you study and may He protect you in your everyday life. The Brethrens will once again gather online in the World of Internet.

Wei Lun aka Sensei the Tall and Intimidating one/Bouncer & Security personnel of the Brethrens = This is myself, so it would be lame talking to myself right? =p

Alex aka the Musician the slight short and noisy one/Chief Entertainer & Fashion Guru of the Brethrens = Brother, even though I called you a Pai Kia last time, you have really come along way and it is an honor to see God's power transforming your life. Thank you for the laughter and joy you have brought with you. May God anoint you and your music, become a MUSICIAN that will IMPACT the WORLD!

Wei Jin aka Ah Boy/Chief Lamer and Recipient of the Brethrens jokes = You got a wonderful journey that God has placed before you. Rise UP! Its time to cross the threshold and take up some responsibilities in the cell. HEHEH. I thank God for such a brother like you, putting in effort to fellowship with us and being able to stand our Brethren's Collection of super lame jokes. It is really really fun to have you around with us. Now go study hard and shine for God!

Wah long post, but its worth it! Haha. I shall now leave with our slogan....................

THE GATHERING OF THE BRETHRENS : THE TAI TAI, THE SENSEI, AH BOY and THE MUSICIAN~

Journey to the ?

2006-03-03T08:07:00.000+08:00

I've been having alot of dry conversations lately, and I am quite tired about it. I dunno, its just me. Makes me feel like rolling my eyes up, give a loud sigh and say thank you for your time and just hang up/close the MSN window. Might as well stop wasting time if it ain't going anywhere. -_-

Ok, that was a rant. Now on to proper things. God has been speaking to me regarding some things lately, and it has been very encouraging. Count on God to perk you up when you are feeling down eh? =D I got alot of areas in my life to work on, but I know it will be better as time passes. Plenty of sacrifices are gonna be made, and some I know its gonna be a pain doing so, but hey, just obey LAH.

I do look forward to the journey set ahead of me, even though I am not so sure what it would really be. Its gonna be with alot of UP & DOWNS, but its natural to have it. I ain't gonna be some sheltered pampered Christian that has no problems in life (That shows how much of a threat you are to Satan). I rather be one that has gone through many a problem, but always emerging victorious through God's strength and grace.Amen.

PS: The above rant should be nailed to the cross. Diam la my earthly body of flesh!

Post-Conf

2006-02-28T12:48:00.000+08:00

The 3 days were absolutely wonderful, just amazing I tell you. The presence of God was so strong I tell you. The Word.. grounded DEEP into my heart. God spoke to me during the conference too, and it really encouraged me.

I am tired no doubt about it, and frankly I have yet to recover my sacrificed time to sleep. Been nodding off quite frequently nowadays, and coupled with a 45min running session daily, I can soon just fall flat and sleep. Ugh... In fact, i am half awake as I type this. ><

Cell group is on this week, and I am pretty much looking forward to it. Its good to fellowship with my members, haha.. Given that I hardly have time to eat fellowship with them after service as I have to rush back to serve. Sometimes I do wish we can meet more often. =)

Mid-week Report

2006-02-22T13:14:00.000+08:00

The week has been going along very well so far, even though I am now sitting there half awake/asleep due to last night's meeting which ended at 0020++ HRS.. O_O It was fun la, but too much of that will turn me into a literal walking zombie...

I've been putting into use what Ps Kong taught last week on the 10 commandments of building relationships + the other messages related and I can say it has been going on fine so far. Been fellowshipping with some of them, having lunch together, going gym etc. Its a slow but steadt progress and I already can see the results. Some of my campmates have started asking about various questions regarding church, an what a pleasure it is to share with them! I pray that God will continue to open them up even more, and most importantly, make them receptive to the Gospel and get them saved.

This week is Ps Ulf's conference! Gonna be great IMO. Pretty much looking forward to it. I'm taking the Sun Duty, so that allows me to queue up with my cell members on Fri and Sat! HAHAHZ! But its good la, its always a pleasure to fellowship with my members. Just that I hope there will be more 2-way communication instead of 1 way. I ain't a fan of 1 way communication, and frankly, it makes me very sad and disappointed, not to say irritated. Giving one or two worded replies makes me feel that you are not interested in carrying on the conversation at all. And please smile abit la, got something against me is it? -_-

Johari's Window

2006-02-20T00:11:00.000+08:00

Help me do kudasai...

Arena

(known to self and others)

calm, caring, logical, sensible

Blind Spot

(known only to others)

bold, dependable, helpful, independent, intelligent, mature, observant, powerful, quiet, reflective, religious, trustworthy

Façade

(known only to self)

modest, patient

Unknown

(known to nobody)

able, accepting, adaptable, brave, cheerful, clever, complex, confident, dignified, energetic, extroverted, friendly, giving, happy, idealistic, ingenious, introverted, kind, knowledgeable, loving, nervous, organised, proud, relaxed, responsive, searching, self-assertive, self-conscious, sentimental, shy, silly, spontaneous, sympathetic, tense, warm, wise, witty

Dominant Traits

100% of people think that weilun is dependable
66% of people think that weilun is trustworthy

All Percentages

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Fridaze...

2006-02-17T16:28:00.000+08:00

Eh I'm stoning out.. even though its a friday... Weekends gonna be busy, as usual, but heck, it will be fun. Loosening myself up for now. Dun wanna get stressed and put up a "intimidating face" and scare people away. Smile Smile!

8 more months to ORD. Praise God and thank Him for all that He has done in my life. Without Him, I won;t be standing where I am today.

Been thinking of who to reach out this 4 weeks. Ps Kong said to use the Jesus way! Not that I had never done that before, but now is who I can really raech out to ^^..

Time to go home ... Lun OUT.

Guitar...

2006-02-09T11:35:00.001+08:00

Hmm.. Bought Delirious? Mission Bell last night.. Wah the album is good sia.. Songs like Mission Bell (DUH!) and Take Off My Shoes really hit the spot.. ><

Gonna start practicing the Guit more now liao.. Really Thank God for this.. Was planning to buy a new one, until my friend told me she could give me hers! WOOT~ Its more for personal worship, and No Jerie, I ain't gonna strum and sing love songs.. -_||| Well, at least not till I HAVE to do it anyway =P. Still a big thank you to Jerie for the guit..^^

Holiday Season is over

2006-02-07T10:29:00.000+08:00

AH man... CNY just flashed by so fast.. to think I was starting to enjoy the long breaks.. ><
The weeks have been pretty enjoyable for me, and hopefully in the coming months till I ORD i will still be able to survive. lol..

I have to say that I am a very very avid gamer. I can spend hours sitting in front of the computer and game away without even taking a break. Unhealthy and unproductive? well yes. Thats the life of a gamer anyway. Frankly, it would seem to be even at a level of addiction. More importantly, it seemed that my gaming was even more important than God Himself.

Fortunately, God spoke to be one day while gaming and challenged me to cut down on my time spend gaming. Naturally i decided to obey and it has been like what? 3 weeks already? And I am still surviving. lol.. But hey, it has been good. More time to read the bible and do other things. Going out with the brethrens help too! =D Gotta love them.

Anyway, since its Feb, I should probably focus on what I would wanna achieve this year. No point writing goals and only letting them jsut be empty ones that you didn't put effort into yea? Its gonna be tough, but hey, what's life without a few challenges? ^^

A new Year..

2006-01-19T14:49:00.000+08:00

Its 2006 proper and yes its time for new goals, resolutions and stuff like that. 2005 had been quite ok, except for a few hiccups here and there. Lets hope this year would be better.

My mind still quite messed up right now, too many things clogging up my brain. Better clear them out soon. Been too busy and tired recently, and I feel sometimes I should just take it easy for a while. Easy to say, not so easy for that to happen. -_-

This year already is a good year... WHy? Coz i ORD ^^. Aside from that, theres the Japan trip that I am looking forward to when I ORD.. Anyone interested? =D Of course theres more things coming up down the months, mission trip, ministry stuff etc etc...

Already written down the resolutions, however not known to many except a few * COUGH Lynn... *COUGH. =D Setting goals and stuff are good for you, gives you a purpose and a destination to LOOK forward to. Its better than just aimlessly spending your life without really working towards a goal, a purpose. Kinda sad life IMHO. Its always good to have something to work towards to!

That being said, I shall declare one and only one resolution/goal/blah~.. That is.. To improve my relationship with the people around me!! YAY!! Its kinda important to me I feel, coz theres alot of people that I really want to get to know better! Being not able to "fei lou"ship with my cell peeps have really made me appreciate that! T_T Guys! Finally I can sit with you all at the kopitiam!! *Cries.

Serving is good, but of course there must be a good balance. Concentrating too much on one can make you lose focus on another. Better learn to manage and balance out my activities. =)

Opportunities not to be missed....

2005-12-23T07:47:00.000+08:00

Yesterday evening, I visited a friend's grandpa at the hospital.. The events that told place at the hospital sparked memories I thought I had settled aside. Memories of my own grandfather, whom passed away a few years back.

My grandfather passed away around the Christmas time, and frankly it came to me so suddenly, that I just could not accept the fact. I could only remember a blur of events, rushing down to the hospital, only to see him already passed on... To think that I last saw him a week ago.. And now there he lay before me, unable to respond to me anymore...

I was in a state of shock, and became depressed for quite some time. I just wept and wept, in realisation that I would never see him again. Another realisation was, I had lost my opportunites to bring my grandfather to church and get him saved. The chance is lost forever... A number of hurtful, unjust words were thrown at me, adding on to my anguish and pain. That was one of my darkest weeks of my life.

Years have passed ever since that period of time. I already moved on, thanks to the Love of God and His peace. Grudges and unforgiveness that surfaced at that point of time were forgiven and forgotten. The only thing that remained in my mind was how sudden life can be, and thus the urgency to see the lost saved.

Folks, life can be filled with things that you will least expect. Let us grab hold of whatever time and opportunity we have and reach out to the people around you. Till everyone is saved, let us not stop reaching out. Let us not give ourselves a chance to regret when the time comes...

Which Dynasty Warrior are U?

2005-12-05T20:26:00.000+08:00

Something interesting.. LOL

Sorry man, don't have the spear to swing around though. XD

Internal Thoughts

2005-11-23T00:32:00.000+08:00

Insulted, felt taken for granted, wrongly accused, misunderstood... Many people experience this, and I would be lying if I said I have yet to encounter this kind of feelings. In fact, these appear quite a number of time in my life. Angry? Of course! Sometimes I wonder if I could even drop to bitterness. I meet many people around me, and definitely this kind of thoughts will surface once in a while.

Frankly I am quite a closed up person. Confiding isn't a common practice to me. I only do so to the people that I really trust.. I used to have these people around me but now... frankly.. I don't see anyone I can do so. So I bottleup my feelings? Can myself in? Yeah I would, if I was that cold, brooding Lun. Putting on a black face and just staring into space alone.. However, now I have this very special someone that I can release all that stored up frustrations. He is non other than my Father above. In times when I feel no one really bothers.. I can take comfort that there is always one person that I can go to. JESUS. Lord without you, I'll probably became a bitter angry guy or stupidly killed myself. Thank you Lord for the peace, for the comfort. Forever I will praise your name, even when I am in the daekest time of my life. =)

PS: To those ppl who assume I am cranky or whatever crap when I DO NOT SMILE... Gimme a break OK? Don't judge people by the cover! I could be tired and I am not a lunatic that goes around putting a happy face. Its tiring smiling 24/7 ya know. I need to rest my facial muscles. And please, when you talk to me, don't make me feel as if I am talking to an automatic answering machine. Its seriously sucks. Please, I like a good conversation! My dear brethren said before that I am quite intimidating.. well ya... but please..I am not a grim unhappy dude ok? =)

The path of Lun

2005-10-24T10:59:00.000+08:00

Yeah I know.. I stand at a crossroad now. 2 paths lie before me. The Cell group path.. and the Ministry Path... Lol.. Machiam like some hero movie like that.. Anyways on a serious note, I am really seeking God and asking Him which path I should take. I will not make a hasty decision as I really would wanna go the path God really wants me to go.. Both paths are challenging, but I know God will give me the strength and endurance to run the race. Lord, prepare me for the way you want me to take. Change me and shape me into the person that is able to take up the challenge, no matter which path You want me to go. Lord I know you will not put something on me that I cannot take. With you, all things are possible. =)

Exhausting week

2005-10-23T10:58:00.000+08:00

OPM (Overnight Prayer Meet) on friday was good. Presence of GOd was strong, worship was good, prayer was powerful. Bro Sidney was playing, so one can expect to sing until u got no voice. =) Sat's event was quite fun, around around sentosa. Tiring, but quite ok la.. Even though it felt as if only a few members were participating. Overall everything was pretty good, except for fellowship, which lacked the joy and the fun. The mood was sombre, somewhat downcast... and frankly, I felt very sad in my heart... Is this the fellowship that I always look forward to? God help us all.

A frying pan for your capacity?

2005-10-10T08:16:00.000+08:00

Wonderful sermon this week was. Pst Carl Gustaff was speaking, and boy was he good. Most of the time I was laughing at his stories and renditions of some of the bible characters. HAHA. HOwever, what he said was really captivating. Some of us have mindsets that are small in capacity. IE to say, we've got a small frying pan to take whatever thoughts , dreams and ideas that come our way. So a big idea, dream comes our way, and alas our "frying pan in our head" is too small to take it in. Ends up, we discard that big dream or idea.

Pst told us to expand that "pan" in our head. Make it become a WOK! Pst promptly took out a wok and put it on his head. HAHA. I agree with him. We can do ANYTHING, as long as we know that it is NOT impossible. let your pan/wok be BIG enough to allow it to take in whatever BIG dream or idea you have. With that kind of capacity, nothing is impossible and GOd acn use you to do mighty works in your lifetime.

On a sidenote, I'm having a few issues that are bothering me at the moment. However God is good, and i'm at peace. Not gonna share it here, since its a bit on my family side, but if you wanna know just ask me personally. Pray for me folks!

100% or 99.9999%?

2005-09-29T08:38:00.000+08:00

Had bible study yesterday, and Bro Bobby siad a phrase that really made me sit up. Its sounds catchy, but it really makes sense. I quote "If God is not Lord of all, He is not Lord at all.".. That made me think. In my walk with God, is He Lord of EVERTHING in my life? My time, my money, my mind etc.. Come to think about it, it MAY seem that everything is dedicated to him, but sometimes we have that little portion that we have yet to surrender to God. I agree with what Bro Bobby said, that IS dangerous. That little thing can cause us to fall away from God, and make us go down the wrong path.

Its like a hike up a hill. Many paths to choose from. At a junction, what would you do? Take the path that someone has gone through and declared safe? Or choose a path that SEEMS right to you. At a junction in life, a person that has fully surrendered all to God has only one path, and that is the path set by God. A person that has some areas of their life not fully surrendered will have more paths.. Paths that may lead to death and destruction..

But hey, we are not a perfect people. We are IN the process of becoming one. BTW, perfect means mature believer... not some flawless person that has no fault. We may have fallen short of the glory of God, but we can safely say that we are TURNED towards Him because of our salvation. And we are moving towards that glory we have fallen short of one step at a time.

God Watches

2005-09-05T10:50:00.000+08:00

Recently I was thinking of many things that are happening in my life, and sometimes the thought of why am I doing the things that I do occurs. Sometimes I would just ponder and ask myself, I have put in so much effort and time, faithfully, but it seems that no one appreciates it. No one seems to bother. It seemed as if I was just serving blindly.. I come to cell, church faithfully, serve in my ministry.. I put in so much effort in these areas, and yet, no one would say a thank you or appreciate it, taking it for granted... Those were the thoughts that hovered on my mind.

However, on Sunday, Pst Zhuang shared something that really caught my attention. He said that God watches everything that you do. Even if no one around you appreciates it, you can be assured that God saw what you did and appreciates it alot! He even encouraged those who are serving, that God has seen us serving faithfully everytime and appreciates it!

That made me very assured. That few sentences made me know that I am really serving for a purpose. Everything that I did, God has seen and taken note of it. It just goes to show that God does not allow any of our effort spent to go to waste, and it just makes me want to serve Him even more! =)

Men cry...

2005-08-18T16:48:00.000+08:00

They say that men rather bleed than cry. (Chinese Lah). I beg to differ. Men can cry all they want, that is... when the Holy Spirit comes and he feels the love of God.. The presence of God.. I cried many times too, youth conference, overnight prayer meeting.. and even any normal service.. When the presence comes, I just weep. I cannot control it, and frankly, why would I want to control it? Let it flow~ =)

I urge all to draw near to God. Just bask in His presence.. Whenever you worship, don't be in a hurry to "RUSH" through, Ps Kong said to "tarry in His presence". Do it! You will find that it is something that you would love to do once more.. =)

THE Army

2005-07-26T08:13:00.000+08:00

Jeremy got commissioned last week. Very very happy for him, since I understand how it feels to have gone through rubbish each week and finally emerging and successfully completing a tough course. All men go through this phase, a time where you will really be put down, broken and moulded into a fighting being. That is the army for you. To christians like us, it is one of the places where your faith will be SORELY tested to the max. It is this period of time where the people who know HIM should really be encouraging him. Do not assume that HE will be fine when he gets enlisted and don't even bother to call him up to encourage him. I have seen so many christians falling away from God because no one bothered... I find it sad. A soul that got saved got lost again.

My BMT time was not a bed of roses. Frankly, it was tough, having to adjust to regimentation. I wouldn't have pulled through if it was not for my family and a FEW friends and members who bothered to call up. Thanks go to you guys... Also, my personal faith in God also helped me pull through.

Here are some tips I can provide for those who are enlisting:

1) Continue to do your QT!
Doesn't mean that you are busy training means you have no time to do QT. There will always be time to do so, so grab hold of that opportunity to do your QT. IT helps, reading the Word of God and after that seeking the Lord. I remember that I would cry out to God for strength during those times, with a pillow on my face.. =)

2) Learn to trust God.
Learn to trust the Lord for strength and believe that HE will bring you through the tough time. The bible says to Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding... Don't think that you are a tough nut that can pull through by yourself. God is there for you. Learn to trust and lean upon Him for help.

3) Crucify your flesh.

Why do I say that? The army is a very carnal place. Every moment you will hear vulgarities and other explicit material flying around. You will be tempted to do the same, so learn how to discipline yourself and resist the temptations.

I don't have much to say anymore, and anyway my brain can't really think in the morning. I dunno who will read this, but I pray that you will be blessed reading it. Out.

Building Fund

2005-07-19T16:26:00.000+08:00

Back after a 2 week plus hiatus. Many things have been happening these past weeks, namely the biggest would be the Arise And Build! 3 weeks of fasting and overnight prayer meeting are over! Time for the next phase.. The pledge! I made mine already, and I a believing on God to supply my needs in the upcoming months!

Ps Kong was preaching a series of messages on giving, and there was one point in one particular session that struck me. If I remember correctly, it was the session on the Laws of the Harvest. The point regarding your tithe/offering being no strings attached struck me.

Lemme warm up a little.. Our tithe is holy, and God puts serious thought in this area of our giving..Adam and Eve had to tithe too! I can quote the verses but my bible isn't with me right now. Anyway, to make things clear, if you are wondering where on earth is Adam/Eve's tithe... its the tree of Good and Evil.. Some knowledge for ya!

Anyways, getting on before I sidetrack again..., the bible says that a tithe or offering must be dead. What it means that the tithe/offering that you are giving must come without any strings attached. Meaning that the money you give should be from YOUR own efforts and not from others. Meaning, you DON'T take your parent's money and say, "This is my offering!" NO! That would be YOUR parent's offering, not yours. Give something that is from you. Something that you put effort in to EARN. That is a true tithe/offering. It that way God can return you in Blessings of Abundance! =)

I think i got my I needed to say out. So till next time, God Bless.

Something to add...

2005-06-23T11:23:00.000+08:00

Its an eventless day today... ANd I am pretty bored here. Went for cashier training yesterday at church. Was quite interesting, but ended abit too late. =\ Nevermind, used to it. Sigh, the video I am gonna do is way behind schedule. May God help me. =)

A little bit to add to what I typed in the previous post. Fellowship is important, but i should never take precedence over God. God should be the first in your life, followed by family THEN church. If God is not your first in your life, you will gradually drift away from God, and in the end, all you come to chuch/cell for is for the friendship. Meaning, spiritual growth has stopped. Not healthy. =
We should have the fear of God in us. Its not literally fearing God or being scared of God. Having the fear of GOd means to put God first in evrything you do. For example, when you decide to do something, you will thing whether whatever you do will upset God etc. That will more or less explain what I mean.

The Lun 4 years ago..

2005-06-19T21:07:00.000+08:00

Been quite some time since I updated. Been busy. =) Ah well, I have been thinking about certain issues in my life, and I couldn't help but think back about the old me. The Wei Lun 4 years ago was a 2 faced man. Seemingly cheery on the outside, but grim and bitter on the inside. I didn't like to talk to people much, content to minding my own business. I had the tendency to lapse into a "grim" mode, whereby I'll just camo myself into the suroundings, put on a grim face and just either stone or do my own stuff. Super Anti-Social person I was? Hehe...

But along came a few people who invited me to Cell Grp.. And the rest is history. It wasn't an overnight change, but a gradual one. I was still quite closed up, like a shell... But along in my journey came people who slowly opened me up, talked to me, got me to share etc.. It was during this time that I gradually opened myself up... I started talking more, smiling a bit more... Hahaz.. One of these people is Jaslin.. Because of her, I am what I am now. Thanks Jaslin!

I hope that anyone who reads this will be encouraged by the little story I have. Everyone, be it a new friend or a mature member, requires constant fellowship and concern. It would be sad if they were left out in conversations and activities. Be a friend to everyone. Don't think that because he or she is older or is a new friend means you don't go and talk to them! Step out of your comfort zone! Don't stick to the normal people you usually talk to. Talk to the rest! Everyone deserves equal amount of friendship. And please, don't give short replies or answers la. I find it irritating myself! Its hard to keep conversations going if you just give a simple answer or two. Its as if you are not interested at all! Keep the conversation flowing, get them to share! And older members, don't talk as if you are some kind of older person with an air of authority! Humble yourself, bring yourself down to the level of the person you are talking to! PS: This was taught by Jaslin! Thanks once again!

Wah, long post. But I feel satisfied. Perhaps I was led to type this, but nevertheless, whoever really bothers to read this, hope u find this useful. Comments are welcome =)

Youth Conference

2005-06-10T10:40:00.000+08:00

Wow. Thats all I have to say. Seriously. After 3 days of Youth Conference, I am still wanting for more. Ps Kong said to never let the hunger and thirst for God die away.. And indeed I will do that.. I am currently experiencing POST - Emerge symptoms.. lol.

All 3 days were so powerful.. Every session with PS Kong was spent worshipping... Just lingering in the tangible presence of God.. I wept like mad, yes, they say men do not cry but I beg to differ! The presence of God was so strong, I just couldn't help myself. =)

The past 3 days were indeed a fruitful. I absorbed so much, and many a Word impacted me. Then, there is the presence of God. Oh man, the next conference is next year! But, good thing is, its at EXPO. NO more queuing 4+ hours before the session starts!! ^^

Rugged Week

2005-06-05T23:19:00.000+08:00

Since WOW is lagging, I shall take the opportunity to do some light blogging.

The past week has been quite rugged for me, cause of the number of attacks I got from the devil. The attacks came from many directions, from friends, work, even church.. Its really been draining me out, so if you see me with a gloomy brooding face, I seek your forgiveness. =) I would appreciate it better if u have any good advice for me.

To all my friends out there, please pray for me. Your prayers would help me alot in resisting the temptations and attacks that are being thrown against me. I got quite a fighting spirit, but wouldn't it be better if I had auxillary support? =)

Thank You

2005-06-03T12:25:00.000+08:00

THANK YOU
FOR THE PROMISES YOU MADE
FOR THE GIFT OF LIFE YOU GAVE
ALWAYS I WILL SING YOUR PRAISE

THANK YOU
FOR THE CHANCE TO LIVE AGAIN
FOR YOUR GRACE THAT NEVER ENDS
ALWAYS I WILL SING YOU PRAISE

HALLELUJAH
HALLELUJAH
HALLELUJAH

MY BELOVED KING
TO YOU I SING

HALLELUJAH’S SONG

YOU MEAN EVERYTHING TO ME
YOU’RE ALL THIS WORLD WILL NEVER BE
YOUR NAME REIGNS IN MY HEART
YOU’RE ALL THAT I DEPEND ON

This song one of my favourite worship songs. Always listen to it whenever I am doing my QT.

Lemme take this change to thank a few people.

God - For loving me and giving me a purpose and destiny.

Family - Without them, I would not have made it through alot of things.

Past CGLs beeleng and Jaslin - Thank you for the discipleship and advice. Without you two, I wouldn;t be where I am today.

Buddies Weiwen, Gab and Tim - 20 years of friendship and going on! God Bless you guys! All of us are in th army, except for one bugger.. ^^ Its been one heck of a ride growing up with you guys!

CGL Lynnette - Thank you for the discipleship and advice. Onward to an exciting adventure with God!

Cell Grp Ex & Current - You people are a bunch of wacky people. Have fun always!

Brethren - More fun filled TGOTB la! Maybe we should avoid eating too much! XD

Bkstore Sun Team B - More fellowship guys! Missed those wacky times. LOL

Jerie - Hoi! Be around more often la! Go Malaysia so much.. Can being PR liao la! XD

To others whom I have failed to mention, whatever amount you have contributed to my life, I thank you! =)

Unproductivity

2005-06-02T23:55:00.000+08:00

Today in my frank opinion, is a very unproductive day. I felt as if I was totally wasting my time, doing things that I shouldn't be doing when there were more important things to be done. I feel abit irritated, but nevertheless, what has been done is already done. I am not one to complain and whine around, but I CANNOT stand the fact that I wasted my time.

Anyways, I think the upcoming weeks are gonna be quite busy for me.. MSG Yong is taking weeks of leave, and he being the pillar of IT support in the office, I predict there is gonna be alot of work that would be thrown to us. But hey, not that I am not used to it. Even CPT Teo has to come down to help out. Wah. Better prepare myself.

I have been thinking about certain relationships recently, and frankly, I feel that it would be better ending them. I seriously do not know.. Confused I am. All the irritance and anger, I think I would be better off without. Not to mention sometimes for no reason people get cold on you for no particular reason. Gimme a break. I am not here to please you. I am here as a friend and nothing else. If you have a problem or something, kindly speak out to me. That should be the way. And not keeping it inside you and then giving people an attitude that isn't very nice. Hey, come on, people take off time to hang out with you all, and yet you treat them as if they are your source of problems. You have something you find that is not right, just say it out. I am not gonna destroy you or something. ^^ I must commend Jourdan my colleague today. He did the right thing by sitting us down and ironing things up. Ladies and gents, that should be the way in friendship. =) (I am a blunt person~ But I am learning to be more sensitive to others.. SO give me some time ya?)

Today, Jerie called me today with interesting news. A secondary school friend, thought to have already lost contact, suddenly contacted her regarding financial issues. This got me worried abit and frankly I would seriously like to find out what is going on. I am unsure of the situation, but should there be anything I can help with, I am ready to do so. But first, lemme get to the bottom of the situation, then I'll decide the next course of actions. Oh Jerie, have a safe trip ya? I'll try to catch you in the near future for a cup of coffee or something. ^^

Ok. I am exhausted. Got my quiet time to do, and an offering message to prepare. Busy Busy. Good night all!

Youth Conference Incoming....

2005-06-01T14:06:00.000+08:00

Youth Conference is next week~~ WWOOT! Man, it never fails to get me perked up and excited. Hey, even though I am an NSF, I can go! Muahahah! Took 3 days leave, thank God for favor, cause sometimes it is quite hard to get 3 days of leave to be approved. Anyways, it seems that this year's theme is extraordinary. Maybe it will come in line with the "Extraordinary" song taht is in the new album. ^^

Went for a prayer meeting yesterday, and frankly, it seemed to be like a preview of the youth conference. Praise and worship was powerful, with everyone jumping and dancing. The presence of God was so strong too.. Whoo.. That should be the way for every service man!

Anyways this week would be quite packed. Waiting for Gloria to revert back to be whether we are still going to Billy Bombers tomorrow. Wah, my wallet starting to ignite...But hey, its for the fellowship. The reason for the gathering is because its been 1 YEAR TGOTB started! HAA~ Amazing is't it. 4 people from different backgrounds, whom met each other in the perth mission trip, turned out to be good friends. Simply amazing.

Ah well, cannot wait for the weekends to come. Lots of things to keep me occupied. Friday! Quickly come!

Fry The Day...

2005-05-27T13:19:00.000+08:00

Its Friday. Yay! Weekends are here... Long gaming hours and such, here I come.. Lol... Ok, that was stupid. Maybe its the air con getting into my head. The air-con here in the office is very very cold.. Its as if I am in some forsaken iceland.. Its understandable to have air con here to keep the servers cool, but hey! Remember that there are people working over here...

Last night I had an interesting conversation with Lynnette.. Little did I know it would be one that would change the course of my life. Sometimes God has somethin big planned for you, which will change the course of your life.. Its sometimes hard to digest it in, but hey, God's plans are always better. Ah well, the future awaits...

Meetings

2005-05-26T09:04:00.000+08:00

This few days have been quite tiring, with me going to sleep too early and waking up feeling like a zombie. Sheesh. Tuesday's meeting was great, with Bro Robin introducing some new changes to the bookstore and other minor stuff. The main focus was the touch screen POS. The interface was nearly the same, except that it has been improved and simplfied. Yay.. I think... The system will be implemented this week and hopefully, efficiency will be improved. Its only for within the store only, since the mobile carts for the booktables are yet to be out. Designs were done by Elaine, which I must say is very very good. *Salutes.. It won't be till next month then the carts will be out. Ah well, lets hope I get put inside the store. ^^

The crappy Internet in the office is finally back up. HAH! After 2 weeks plus lacking of internet, life is finally back to normal.. Yay.. can finally do something instead of lying on the floor trying to sleep.. ^^ WOOT!

A Public Holiday

2005-05-23T21:31:00.000+08:00

Pretty boring day I must day. Besides the fact that Gabriel came over to stay for the night. Basically staring at the screen all night till like 4am. hahaz. Typical of us. Its another week and tomorrow is Tuesday. Gonna go down Attributes office and try out the touch screen cashier system. I wonder how it would be like ^^. Ah well, I will soon find out......

Purpose

2005-05-22T01:32:00.000+08:00

Recently I've been thinking about my purpose in certain areas. Feel kinda wierd, this is fresh to me, and I've been having some trouble dealing with it. Sigh.. Help me Lord. A sense of purpose is very important in many things, since having one can drive a person on to do many things. I feel mine fading away, which I seriously do not want to. Once again, help me Lord.

Cell group was pretty good today with the message on progressive commitment. The church is moving on into a new level, with Ps Kong revealing to us his vision in these few weeks. Hoho, getting excited.

Hmm.. Update later. I think God is telling me something...

A normal day.. I think...

2005-05-19T20:55:00.000+08:00

Today was quite a quiet day.. Nothing much except for some tedious work that was needed to be done. All in all, pretty silent... Except for the short 15min when i stepped into a cab....

It was raining, thus I decided to take a cab home... Never did I realise I was stepping into a disgruntled taxi driver's vehicle... Good Lord.. The man wouldn't stop complaining about politics and other stuff. Sheesh, I could only nod and smile.. Couldn't be bothered...

Came home, had a nice dinner and started to play WOW... It has been ages since I touched it, with either me being sick or busy, thus I couldn't even get the time to log on.. Finally, after so long I can play... T-T

Would have talked abit more about the disgruntled uncle, but I thought it would be wiser not doing so.. Don't wanna touch on the political stuff, lest I get myself into unwanted trouble.. Laters then...

Exercise Mercury II ARGH!

2005-05-19T00:11:00.000+08:00

SAF is having an exercise... Simulating a cyberthreat... ARGH!! And I happen to be one of the guys in charge of my departments computer stuff.. Oh man... 4 days of running around like a mad man scanning hard disks and dismantling them.. wah... To make it worse, internet is down, so I am like rotting in the office.... ah....

Anyways, went to church to support Shuana and her team for the talentime. I think they did pretty well, good effort girls! Its good experience, win or lose. Helps build you up and display your talents, unlike some Idol shows that only aim to put people down. bleh...

I need to sleep now.. UGH.. Tired to the max, since I hav been out the whole day... Time to go.. Lights off...

A sick 2 days

2005-05-17T19:06:00.000+08:00

Sheesh.. Been sick for like 2 days... Caught a fever on Monday morning... Crap it was terrible.. Was feeling as if I was gonna end up in ICU or something. Lol. Today, fever is gone, but my head is still like crap.. Hurts a lot.. As if someone smacked my head hard.. Pounding with pain all the time.. AH!!!!! Ah well, life goes on~~

Sunday Liao...

2005-05-15T22:10:00.000+08:00

Its sunday and I am dead tired... Lol... Whole day at church. Pst Phil preached a powerful message today on servanthood, and boy was it good. Then he prayed for the secondary school students. Sigh, when will the NSFs get prayed for.. Hahas.... My time will come.. Soon...

Another week has come and passed. Time flies so fast. Good times especially. =) Good times are nice to remember, but it would be better to move onward and create even more good and memorable times. ^^ That should be the way.

Wondering whether tomorrow will go watch Kingdom of Heaven with Gloria and WJ... He better confirm fast sia... If not it will be too late.. Heeheh.. I am a busy man after all...

KKz, time to prepare for another week ahead.. Good day folks.

Post Conference Reflections

2005-05-13T00:43:00.000+08:00

Whoo, just came back from the conference. All I can say is, I did not waste my time. These 3 days were powerful, and I have indeed learnt alot this 3 days. Today, Ps Phil talked about alot of stuff, but what I caught was "Loyalty" and "The 7 Rivers of God". Sometime in our life, we will come forward to a place where we will have to make a decision. This decision will ultimately determine your destiny. 2 paths, 2 different outcomes. Where does your loyalty lie? With God or yourself? Choose the wrong path and you will be led to nothing. Choose the right path, and you will be led to another level, another experience, another place. The whole point is, to choose what is right even IF it might be disadvantageous to you. WOW..... Theres still quite alot of stuff I am not sure of, was hoping that Lynnette would talk about it after the conference, but I guess she was in a hurry to catch her bus. Ah well, the weekend cometh, hopefully I'll be able to find answers this sat. ^^

Recently, I have been thinking of thoughts about leaving cell and stuff. I found it surprising. This hasn't happened for a very very long time. The devil seems to keep on whispering things like me being left out and stuff, but lemme tell ya.. I do not intend to lose this fight. I will not allow what happened years back to happen once again. Those who happen to read this, do pray for me. I greatly appreciate it. Thanks. ^^

A busy week has passed and the weekend comes. Yay. Time to relax. But still tomorrow is a working day and I cannot afford to slack. Time to sleep. Goodnight folks.

Conference: The proper reflections

2005-05-12T12:48:00.001+08:00

Ok.. Here I am, in the office... Last night's conference was a blast. Enjoyed it to the max, the praise, the worship, the Word. Wow. Ps Phil was talking about the process of becoming a man of God, 4Ds (Disappointment, Discouragment, Depression and Death) and how we as Christians should fight back and emerge victorious whenever we are in the pits.. Talk about a Word of Season. That really impacted me. Thinking of the times when I was seriously down and depressed and looking at myself now, I can only thank God for being there with me during those times.

Tonights the final night, and as always, conferences on the last night are always the best of the best. Cannot wait for it. ^^ Hopefully I can make it down in time to grab a bite before going in. Yesterday I sat on the steps.. Not a pleasant experience. Hoho... I cannot imagine this year's youth conference. *Shudders...

I guess thats all I can really talk about now. Sitting here in the office can seriously cause someone to turn brain dead.. Haha.. Ah well, time to go back to reading web comics.

Conference, Sleepy Reflections

2005-05-12T00:43:00.000+08:00

Whoo.. Back from a powerful conference with Ps Phil... As expected man, a powerful conference thats totally filled with the Holy Spirit and a Word of season. I'm too tired to really note down what impacted me now, so I'll probably do it later in the office. Time to sleep. That would be the best thing to do now... *Lies on the bed and goes into hibernation...

Another Day..

2005-05-10T14:06:00.000+08:00

In the office right now. Pretty bored I guess with nothing much to do besides the power point animation. Pretty silly I feel, to use power point to create an animation that attempts to impress people, but what the heck, I'm just in charge of doing it.

Tonight's the conference, but I'm on duty so I probably get to watch it in the lobby. Been sometime since I did that. Hahaz. It's gonna be good...

Probably won't log in to WOW tonight. By the time I come back from the conference, it will be too late. Anyway the server is on maintenence today, so it does not matter. I'm getting bored. Gotta find something to keep me occupied nowadays. Sigh... Ah well, back to reading web comics.

Reflections

2005-05-08T23:29:00.000+08:00

Sigh... Cannot believe I am actually updating this... Many things have happened for the past few months, busy with army, busy with church, busy with cell group. To think about it, it has been quite a fun time. Hopefully it would be better in the near future.. My ORD still far away.. Cannot wait to get into NTU.. LOL..

Anyways, today has been a tiring day. Woke up early to serve ministry. Hahaz.. Gotta love serving, except that today I am still abit blur.. Probably I still in dreamland... Anyways the mother's day discount created alot of confusion, but still managed to keep account errors to minimal.. (Thank God!) Anyways today I was tending the booktable, blessedly hot! Wheres my favourite fan?? Hahaz... Still remember that old fan.. Save me from gettnig drenched.. Last time logistics IC.. now still logistics IC.. HAHAZ!

Ps Phil's conference is coming! Can't wait for it! Its gonna be good, but I got duty on tuesday. Ah well, still can watch while serving. Shouldn't be a problem. Right I thin its time to sign off. Got work tomorrow. OUT!

The Day this blessed blog got created~

2004-06-26T03:05:00.000+08:00

Interesting... I cannot believe i actually started to blog... Perhaps the time waiting to enlist has gotten me mad.. XD Anyways... this is my first post... And this blog design... *Looks around.. will definitely change. That means I have to do programming again.. Great..