Friday, April 21, 2006
I just read brethren's post... and got really impacted by what she wrote. Ya know, friendship is something that is really good to have. Friends taht stand by you in your time of need. Friends that are willing to sacrifice to aid you etc. But friendship comes at a cost. It is your TIME. A friendship or relationship in general requires the 2 individuals to spend time to maintain it. A relationship can just die out if the 2 parties involved just busy themselves with their own individual lives.
There is no excuse for claiming that you are too busy etc. Time is yours to manage, and with proper time management, you can do anything you wish to. I do not accept reasons like "I am busy with studies" or "tied down by this and that". It makes me wonder how you arrange your time. If you are busy with this or that, do take note to check whether are you TOO BUSY for God too! What is BUSY? I heard this from someone: BUSY = Being Under Satan's Yoke... The devil is clogging up your life with so many stuff that you are neglecting your relationship with God! Are you too tired everyday to do your QT? QT is a time spent talking to God. In every relationship, communication is very important. The more you comminicate, the closer you will get with the other person. This applies to your relationship with God too! The more you communicate with God, the better you get to know Him and the closer you will be to Him! Its a fact la! I notice myself, the people I hardly talk to my relationship with them is like an acquaintance type. I know the person, but I dunno who he/she really is and frankly, I wouldn't want to hang out with the person. And please, don't ring me up/MSN/talk and attempt to "chat" for a mere 5 minutes or so. It lacks sincerity and I will feel it is not a fruitful conversation and hence, a total WASTE of my time. Sadly, I see this happening to me many times.
Another thing is.. don't wait for people to come to you! HELLO! You got a mouth and a brain, so go take the initiative and start talking to other people. Its awkward at first, but if you are sincere, the person will be willing to open up! Go spend some time hanging out with the person la!
Long post. Did't know I had so much to type early in the morning. LOL.
PS: BRETHREN! Thou shall not worry! Even if you are in Mel, there is always MSN/Internet phones etc. And... you have my Word that I will come down personally to visit you (During my holidays la!) Distance is no issue! Time is not an issue to me either!
Monday, April 17, 2006
As I think about it, I've seen myself change for the past year in the cell group, but I'm talking about my view and my feelings for my cell group.
When the cell multiplied... I dunno.. I felt.. OLD. Yes. OLD. My good group of buddies was torn away from me in an instant. I had no one to relate to? Seriously who? Everyone was way younger than me. Similar interests? Difficult. I guess I was at a total loss.
I had difficulty fitting in. Many a time I found myself alone... It seemed alright to me.. since I was pretty much a loner before and I thought I was used to it. I guess I was wrong. I did try to put in effort to go talk around... but I guess I got tired. Naturally.. things started getting dry after that.
Alot of things went by... I fail to remember. My memory seems to fail me alot nowadays. But now I am more or less settled onto my dear cell. I've opened up quite abit. This time I didn't have anyone to probe me or push me to do it. Its probably the enviroment that I was placed in that REQUIRED me to do so. Its good la. Make we take initiative for once. I'm still learning though. To many I still ain't the number one person they would really like to share and talk. But hey! I didn;t say this journey was a short stroll in the park. With God's help, it is gonna be good and interesting. =)
Tuesday, April 11, 2006
=\.. Gabriel just called me to tell me that he found his IC.. after 2 1/2 years... @$%#%^$%^$!.. ORD LA! Good for him... now 4 more months for me...
Wednesday, April 05, 2006
That time of my life has come... I am very lost now.. I dunno what to do..GAH! In case you dunno what I am talking about, it is "The person that will sit next to me in TGOTB" as referred to by my dear brethrens. I dunno.. I hadn't bothered about that till now.. And now its stuck in my mind like glue and I do not know what to do with it.. God help me!
