Monday, April 17, 2006
As I think about it, I've seen myself change for the past year in the cell group, but I'm talking about my view and my feelings for my cell group.
When the cell multiplied... I dunno.. I felt.. OLD. Yes. OLD. My good group of buddies was torn away from me in an instant. I had no one to relate to? Seriously who? Everyone was way younger than me. Similar interests? Difficult. I guess I was at a total loss.
I had difficulty fitting in. Many a time I found myself alone... It seemed alright to me.. since I was pretty much a loner before and I thought I was used to it. I guess I was wrong. I did try to put in effort to go talk around... but I guess I got tired. Naturally.. things started getting dry after that.
Alot of things went by... I fail to remember. My memory seems to fail me alot nowadays. But now I am more or less settled onto my dear cell. I've opened up quite abit. This time I didn't have anyone to probe me or push me to do it. Its probably the enviroment that I was placed in that REQUIRED me to do so. Its good la. Make we take initiative for once. I'm still learning though. To many I still ain't the number one person they would really like to share and talk. But hey! I didn;t say this journey was a short stroll in the park. With God's help, it is gonna be good and interesting. =)
